Wreck This Life

and see what you find in the pieces.

awkwardandnervous:

Today’s Qwertee.com tshirt is amazing. 
Cloud by Tony Centeno

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awkwardandnervous:

Today’s Qwertee.com tshirt is amazing. 

Cloud by Tony Centeno

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A Surprise.

I am happy. I am happy with my life, with my job, with my (now over a week old) break-up with my first girlfriend, with my books and music and poetry and with my God. I am satisfied with it all, and this feeling has been going for quite a few hours. 

If you feel very dissatisfied or upset with your life (as I did in what to me is many weeks ago, but to you is merely a few blog posts down), then I have no advice or help for you, other than to continue seeking God (which you will probably ignore, as I did for so long). But I do want you to know that satisfaction is possible. I have achieved it, though I’m sure life is aiming its guns at my happiness as I type. 

But it is possible. You can be happy. No matter what. 

Just believe. I know it sounds like a cat poster, but it’s true.

God bless.

Silence is False

Silence is something we have never experienced.

We think we have, but in reality the same song was always beating just under its surface.

It is a song played with many instruments, and sung with every voice. Every verse is different and the same.

And all of the songs you hear are the little bits of it that escaped through the silence and were heard by human ears, and are played to keep souls alive. Because that’s what that music is. It is the sound always playing behind the veil of reality. This is why all of your dreams, and so many of your tears, are brought up by music. Because it reminds you that the life you live is not the only life you will ever live. It reminds you that there is a veil, and this gives you hope of a greater life than ever before. And it also frustrates and frightens you. Do not be afraid or confused by this. We are an animal made of both flesh and spirit. Duality is our essence.

Oh, and that song that’s always there? That is the song God writes, forever and ever

So silence really is not real. Not at all. There is only one time when silence will come true. Only one time when it ever really exists.

It’s when God steps off of his throne and comes up to you, and says
"Hello, my child. Welcome Home."

A Question upon my return to tumblr.

Why is it so hard to simply love? 

I am upset. 

This is why.

I once attended Timothy Ministries, which is a Christian educational program for homeschoolers, which you attend one day out of the week, more if you wish I suppose. And now, even though I am graduated and out of the program, I am still friends with the man who was my teacher longest, a music teacher I’ve always called Mr. G. I am also Facebook friends with him, so every time a group of students who have spent all their time and money perfecting their talent for acting, or music, or creative writing do something amazing, I get a front row Facebook seat to it.

And I’m working with my father as an electrician, because it is the only job I could get. My father, who hates reading, hates most of what I love to read, and who I think genuinely believes the end times are here, and points to everything I love as symbols of Satan’s hold on this world. 

Just a little on that note because it makes me angry: I believe in God, and I believe in Satan, but for crying out loud it takes some inward arrogance to act like you’re so certain Armageddon is around the bend. 

Anyway, I have always dreamed of writing a novel, and discovering John Green and his wonderful books has certainly not lessened that dream. But I’m afraid. 

I’m afraid I made the wrong choices one too many times, procrastinated a little too much, shut too many doors on myself, and now I’m basically doomed to be an electrician working with my preacher father for the rest of my life, every now and then spitting out little bits of poetry on tumblr. 

And dammit that is not the kind of life I want. I believe you can make whatever you want out of your life, even though there’s so much that we cannot control. I still have time to write in the evenings, and that is what I intend to do. I won’t let these choices define me anymore than they already have.

But it’s a big thing to do, and it’s frightening, and I just want to know if there’s anyone out there who gets it. I feel alone right now, and despite what a million gospel hymns say, going way down on my knees has not helped. There’s a reason I hate gospel music. Yiruma always seemed more God-like anyway. 

Just talk to me if you understand what I’m saying. I need another voice besides mine who knows this, and who knows I’m not crazy.

God bless

fishingboatproceeds:

grayblue:

i have no idea.

Toad knows how we feel on the inside.

Oh, for at least one minute every day, this is me.

fishingboatproceeds:

grayblue:

i have no idea.

Toad knows how we feel on the inside.

Oh, for at least one minute every day, this is me.

(Source: elblindoguardiano)

godtheking:

y-a-h-w-e-h:

lightwillfindaway:

asboldasalion:

moshing-for-our-maker:

andtheydanceduntilmidnight:

artemiscornwallace:

blame-it-on-the-bbc:

HOLD UP

I’m not about to claim that I’m a Bible expert

I’m not about to claim that I fully understand God

I’m not about to claim that God DIDN’T do those things in The Bible

But CHRISTIANITY IS A FAITH based on a TRUST in the GOD that WE BELIEVE is TRUE and SOVEREIGN

The Passover was God helping his people out of slavery after years of being oppressed. He gave the Pharaoh 9 OTHER CHANCES and even when he threatened the lives of each firstborn he still GAVE PHARAOH A CHANCE TO SAVE HIS HOUSEHOLD by marking his door as a sign of understanding God’s sovereignty.

God flooded the Earth because he saw the unrighteousness that plagued mankind. He SAVED NOAH and his ENTIRE FAMILY because they were righteous. And when the flooding was done he PROMISED TO NEVER FLOOD THE EARTH AGAIN (Genesis 9:11)

100% of the Old Testament is about God preparing his people for the COMING of a SAVIOR. It is about God showing mankind how FLAWED they are; how much their own sin leads to inevitable downfalls. It his about him, time and time again, punishing people for unrighteousness to trying to get it in their heads that without a MESSIAH, they will NEVER BE PERFECT

And yes, PEOPLE DIED

but that doesn’t mean that God’s HEART didn’t BREAK for EACH AND EVERY ONE OF THEM

The ENTIRE BOOK of Hosea is about God telling the people how much it hurts him to see them all suffering because of the heavy burden of sin. He talks of punishing the unrighteous but follows with “How can I give up on you, Ephriam? How can I hand you over, Israel?.. My heart is changed within me; all my compassion is aroused.. I will settle them in their homes” (Passages from Hosea 11:5-11…)

I strongly encourage you to read all of Hosea before you suggest that God does not care about his people (or at least contact me and I’ll summarize it)

And that “public murdering of his own son”

That’s the pivotal moment of it all

That son is the reason Christians find hope in a world that is so BROKEN and full of CHAOS

That son DIED

HE

DIED

FOR

YOU

HE HAD A CHOICE

TO LIVE OR TO DIE

AND HE CHOSE “PUBLIC MURDER”

BECAUSE HE THOUGHT OF YOU AND KNEW

THAT ONE DAY YOU WOULD MESS UP

THAT ONE DAY YOU WOULD FEEL WORTHLESS or BROKEN or SINFUL

AND SO HE DIED

FOR YOU

SO THAT YOU COULD FIND HOPE and REDEMPTION in HIS SACRIFICE

YES God did all those things

YES people died

And maybe you don’t personally believe that God is sovereign, but at least hear it from our side

Christians are not oblivious to the things God has done

But part of Faith is trusting God’s plan and judgement and if you really look at the context of The Bible from our perspective, I think you’ll find that God is nothing short of loving and sovereign.

Feel free to message me with any questions you have about any of this, my ask is always open and I’d love to share more of this with you.

Thank you and I hope you have a lovely day

This.

Don’t ever call my God a “dick” or a “douche bag”. You can say the “F word” a hundred times but DO NOT call the Savior of the world something as foul as that.

^ js

Wow. That response. Perfect.

yes. amen.

YES YES AND YES

Love this persons response, amen

I am so infinitely happy I have seen this. Thank you God for tumblr.

edwardspoonhands:

karenhallion:

miss-nobody13:

itsprongs:

Oh god guys. JK Rowling is a genius, and so is this person.

the thing I love about this fandom is that there are 7 books and 8 movies to observe. so every once in a while some blessed soul finds a piece of information that makes all the magic resurface again

Mind. Blown. 

Oh Lord…it’s a metaphor too. It’s symbolic of Neville holding on to his past, the horrors of what happened to his parents, of being a passive vessel for that atrocity. As if the terrible thing kept happening and would never stop happening. 
When he moves forward and becomes part of his own story instead of the story of his past, his strength surges. 



Thank God for Harry Potter, and thank you J.K.

edwardspoonhands:

karenhallion:

miss-nobody13:

itsprongs:

Oh god guys. JK Rowling is a genius, and so is this person.

the thing I love about this fandom is that there are 7 books and 8 movies to observe. so every once in a while some blessed soul finds a piece of information that makes all the magic resurface again

Mind. Blown. 

Oh Lord…it’s a metaphor too. It’s symbolic of Neville holding on to his past, the horrors of what happened to his parents, of being a passive vessel for that atrocity. As if the terrible thing kept happening and would never stop happening. 

When he moves forward and becomes part of his own story instead of the story of his past, his strength surges. 

Thank God for Harry Potter, and thank you J.K.

thegirlwiththeequalistglove:

I will always, always, reblog this. It never ceases to make me laugh

(via xxjune-bugxx)

Live in fear. Live in hope. But never allow yourself to live in apathy. Not for a single second. Live in contentment, or bliss, or sadness, if you must rest. But always live.